Pacific

Featured in Volume 3!

A poetry submission, written by Marilù Ciabattoni

I’m walking to the Pacific.

I’ve longed so much

For this moment.

Years and years,

I waited,

And I am waiting

Still.

Sitting here,

I’m looking at the Pacific

With my mind’s eye,

The only way I can see.

My actual eyes –

The ones you see –

Are blind.

Escapism,

I once read,

The desire to de-associate,

The rejection of reality.

I wish this wasn’t real

This is not my life,

This is not my choice.

Someone calls me,

I don’t pick up.

Someone’s looking for me

But I don’t care.

I lost all I had –

All I wanted –

On the shores of the Pacific.

Next time I’ll know,

I won’t care anymore.

The world keeps spinning

And I’m still here.

I wish I could spin too.

Marilù Ciabattoni is a writer, editor, and translator based in Amsterdam, The Netherlands. She studied English Literature and Creative Writing in Rome, Italy, and she’s now working as a Communications intern and a freelancer. Her creative work was featured on various zines like Cordelia Magazine, Unpublished Magazine, and Bloom Magazine, as she continues publishing fiction, poetry, and nonfiction on a regular basis. You can find her at @artkills_ on Instagram.